Coming and Going

More times than not when you leave something - like a job it is for good reason. But occasionally there are times, when it just feels like it's what needs to happen. It's not that things are bad, or that you don't enjoy it. It just simply feels like time to make that next step.

4 years ago I decided that it was time to stop moving and "settle down" into one place. Unlike most people I have the opportunity to go back and revisit that world at least once a year. And there it is, with all of it's flaws, ridiculous policies, and ways of doing things, and I can't help but love it. While in the midst of this world I find myself questioning if leaving was ever the right thing. Now that I'm settled what do I have to show for it? Has staying in one place netted me anything more?

I don't know why I continue to subject myself to this once sometimes twice a year, when I know that being here, and leaving here will make me miss my former life and long to return to it. Maybe this is where my heart truly belongs. Maybe it's just familiar.

Either way I'm ready to feel again. I've been stagnate, just hanging out biding my time. And while there are aspects of my world that I love, I am neither passionate, nor in love with what I do.

There's got to be something more....