Dreams, Silly Dreams

I think most people don't recall their dreams or if they do the details are fuzzy. I can almost count the number of times I can remember dreaming. They say there is no such thing as a "dreamless" sleep, but I think I really do have dreamless sleep sometimes.

All that being said, I have had some pretty vivid dreams in recent weeks. And they are so so so very random. My dream last night seemed so freakishly real, and for one of the first times, I could see everyone's faces, I knew exactly where I was, and what was going on. It was actually a very happy dream, so why did I wake up heart pounding and feeling like I might vomit?

Maybe because it was so real, maybe because it's something trapped in the back of my head that I haven't even allowed myself to think on it. And so here I am today still thinking about it, and looking for a way to shake it from my brain. Don't most people try to hold onto their happy dreams? Should I really try to shake it from my brain? What do I do with this?

I know, this is by far one of my most random post and definately one of the vaguest. Welcome to my life...

What dreams may come

I'm not a dreamer, that is most of the time I have no recollection of having dreams at night. Not I wake up and things are fuzzy and I lose what I was dreaming about. I mean I close my eyes, things fade to black and then I wake up.

Last night though - I dreamed and it was clear and vivid and so real I really hated to wake up. And even after I woke up I had to think about it and piece together the facts to make sure it didn't really happen. It's been floating around my head all day. As the day has progressed and I've napped on and off I've lost some of the details and those naps only contained the blank screen.

My life is in turmoil right now. Not that I'm in some huge crisis, but I am at a crossroads of sorts, which gives way to stress at every twist and turn. I don't know peace or true rest. But for that moment last night...there was peace, there was rest, and there was joy.

I don't know if you can will yourself to dream, but if you can I will be visiting that dream again.