Something funny/crazy/ totally bizarre happened today. It was the kind of thing I would have picked up the phone to call and tell you about. A reason just to hear your voice and laugh with you.
Big things happened not too long ago. Once again they were things that I would have wanted to share with you. Things that I could have gotten your honest opinion on, things I would have liked to celebrate with you.
Today I was discussing the difference between love and obsession. In the midst of the conversation I said that I think I might have been obsessed, but the more I think about it - the more I think I was in love with the idea of you. Don't get me wrong you were/are a great person, but now that it's all said and done I think about the time I had "getting over you" and I think it was more "getting over the idea of you".
Sometimes I still want to call you. Sometimes I still want to laugh with you. But that chapter is over, and who am I to try and put a comma where God put a period?
It's time for a new chapter with a new someone. Time to call someone else when the funny things happen. Time to want to laugh with someone else.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
This Season....
I wish I were a better blogger, I always have things I want to write about, yet fail to make time to sit down and write them. I think I get too easily distracted with "life". Sometimes I wonder if I miss a lot of life because I am so busy with it. Does that even make sense?
Today is my Sabbath. Sunday should probably always be my sabbath, but I've been so committed to church and other things that a solid day of rest is often over-looked on my part. So today I decided I was going to have a real sabbath. I slept in, skipped church, went to the movies, had lunch, and now I'm sitting on the couch with two sweet puppies taking time to do what I want - write. It has been a lovely day.
My own personal life has changed so drastically in the last 5 months it kind of makes my head spin. I have a new job that I absolutely love, with a boss that I don't even know if I can find the right words to grasp what an amazing boss he is. The church that I was so hesitant to even go to regularly is now a HUGE part of my life. I am learning, connecting, and directing there, and it's crazy. But I love it. My friends have increased in number, sadly when life is changing for you and for the people around you it's hard to keep up with everyone. I've added some new folks who bring new color and insight to life as I know it and I'm thankful for each one of them. I also had to let some friendships go. I came to realize that some people couldn't be trusted, some were liars, and some didn't care as much as I did, and some I just needed space from. And as much as that saddens me it is a part of life.
Overall, I can't complain about this season of life. There are things of course that I would love to fall into place or to change, but since I can't change them, I am learning to adapt and work with what I've been given. Life is constantly changing and I think we are all trying to go with the flow and dodge the punches thrown our way. Through it all I'm praying not only for myself but for all of you, "Jesus show me the way you want me to go, direct my path."
I hope everyone out there is doing well!
Know that you are loved!
Sandrine
Today is my Sabbath. Sunday should probably always be my sabbath, but I've been so committed to church and other things that a solid day of rest is often over-looked on my part. So today I decided I was going to have a real sabbath. I slept in, skipped church, went to the movies, had lunch, and now I'm sitting on the couch with two sweet puppies taking time to do what I want - write. It has been a lovely day.
My own personal life has changed so drastically in the last 5 months it kind of makes my head spin. I have a new job that I absolutely love, with a boss that I don't even know if I can find the right words to grasp what an amazing boss he is. The church that I was so hesitant to even go to regularly is now a HUGE part of my life. I am learning, connecting, and directing there, and it's crazy. But I love it. My friends have increased in number, sadly when life is changing for you and for the people around you it's hard to keep up with everyone. I've added some new folks who bring new color and insight to life as I know it and I'm thankful for each one of them. I also had to let some friendships go. I came to realize that some people couldn't be trusted, some were liars, and some didn't care as much as I did, and some I just needed space from. And as much as that saddens me it is a part of life.
Overall, I can't complain about this season of life. There are things of course that I would love to fall into place or to change, but since I can't change them, I am learning to adapt and work with what I've been given. Life is constantly changing and I think we are all trying to go with the flow and dodge the punches thrown our way. Through it all I'm praying not only for myself but for all of you, "Jesus show me the way you want me to go, direct my path."
I hope everyone out there is doing well!
Know that you are loved!
Sandrine
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